our amé
I uploaded these pics last week and wanted to do a post because she turned 8 months last friday but every time I went to finish, I couldn't and had to stop. As I am sure most people know by now, the cat is out of the bag, my sister and her family are moving. I didn't think any place could feel as far as California but there is a much further place. Across an ocean and not in any way driving distance.
I want to be really selfish and angry but when I look at this beautiful baby's face I have to remind myself their decision to move is truly for her, so her parents can give her the best possibilities in life. I have to keep reminding myself that we are fortunate to have them anywhere on earth, even if it is not at our convenience. People lose loved ones for numerous reasons every day and we are fortunate that they will only be a phone call away. In this world, with all of the crazy things happening everywhere, we are fortunate that the baby is healthy and happy with two parents that love her so much.
I try not to make these post about me really, mostly Pres and now Amélie but this will affect her so it hurts me knowing her only first cousin will be so far and she doesn't even get the magnitude of it yet. She gets sad now not being able to see the baby as much as we wish we could.
I want to be a big baby and cry that my sister is leaving and yell at anyone for it but I can't. I am fortunate that she is happy. I am fortunate to have a sister, two sisters! I am fortunate that I, myself, have a family with someone I love. I am fortunate that there are worse things that could happen. I am fortunate that Pea gets to know what it's like to be so loved and that she knows how to love in return, no matter how far. I am so fortunate to experience so much love in one day. We are all so rich in love.
